Grew.... UP! UP! and AWAY

hey it's been a while, not a while actually... it's been a very long time since my last post... almost 4 years since the latest date of this blog's posts.

i'm telling you! I've grew up.. and grew up is sucks...

 i'm a doctor now, a real one. as you people know it, being a doctor such great job and being famous in seconds, you got it wrong people (yeah! you're wrong). it's not a dream came true, it's a living hell, i mean, constant burden and constant high, higher, highest expectations to help someone's life. i'm not saying this job sucks but this job makes you not even know who you are.

 That's not what i want to tell you in this post, right know i want to share my story on these four years, not all of em but the important one and the moment i remembered since i have a small brain and forgetful member of mankind. i've been through what people said as KOASS, quite a great story in 1 year and 8 months. being a fresh graduate medicine bachelor you should doing the intern part what we called KOASS. That kind of life happened in 2011-2012. the stories that will be crystallized in my brain as a aour and sweet moment.

 Right now, i've just finished my real internship. the real one with all the responsibilities as medical doctor, including be sue by the patient.. luckily i'm not being sued by them. i spent my last year in Batam, the sins city of Indonesia, where everything is legal or at least "legalized" within that area. the whole last year can be describe as pain in the as, but i got some new friends, real friends. even thou there's some backstabber friends (i don't know whether i said it right).

Maybe i need more space, but this time not because i feel like i'm get enough with what i deal with. this moment i want more spaces because i want to be more and more creative as in to do more with my job, my friends and my family since i left them quite in a long time since i KOASS.

 I hope, i can enter for medical doctor specialist in orthopaedic real soon. i pray for that. hope you pray for me.

 i'm a realist and i'm a doctor

This is life

seseorang pernah bilang pas gue masih SMP " kehidupan itu ga pernah jau2 dari yang namanya masalah, makin kamu besar maka makin besar pula masalah yang ada di depan kamu." omongan itu di bilang k gue pas masu ujian nasional SMP dan gue berpikir " ya ntar aja lah buat masalah2 yang laen, masalah terbesar gue saat ini adalah gmn caranya gue bsi cepet2 lulus." Well, pemikirian naif anak smp pada saat itu membuat gue berpikir omongan itu cm buat nenangin yang mau ujian doank, sampe akhirnya gue mulai berasa setelah lulus sma klo emg makin lama masalah makin banyak n makin besar.

Walopun tiap masalah itu makin lama makin banyak tapi saat itu jg gue berasa gue mampu buat beresin masalah yang ada di depan gue, jd ke inget satu verse yang bilang bahwa setiap masalah yg kita dapet dari Tuhan itu ga pernah melebihi kekuatan kita sendiri.. itu tebukti dan benar. Thanks God for that..

Nikmatilah setiap masalah yang kita hadepin, saya sudah mencoba untuk menikmati setiap masalah walaupun tetep bikin stres jg tapi bakal lebih mudah untuk diselesaiin, karena masalah itu ga akan terlihat sebagai masalah klo kita nikmatin setiap langkah dalam selesaiinnya... Hal ini yg ngbuat orang2 nanya sama gue, "koq lu bisa senyum2 n santai2 aja sih ngadepin masalah kaya gini??" padahal jawabanny gampang koq, enjoy aja sama masalah2 lu and percaya kalo masalah2 lu bakal selesai..


This is life, enjoy it!





I'm a realist and I'm a doctor

If my life is a chemical bond i will name it saturated bond...

it's near the end of the semester but i have no idea why i cant get out from my boredom not even i can enjoy myself. i try to be though, trying harder than before but it just like stuck in my head that so many goal i have to accomplish.. God damn it.. everything freak me out.. i wish i hv a single moment to giving myself a lil break but i know i cant do that, it make me weak to let myself taking a single rest..

hard to tell anyone that im tired of all this even harder than working on my daily presentation or solving an olympic level chemistry.. these days breaking me down without any mercy at all.. it started with my routine exam and i fall for stomachache for a week! come on!! a week!! my basbetball schedule killing my physic slowly while i'm struggling with my stomachache, exhausted is the best word for now.

give me more space and i will tell everything to you.. every single second of my days, u'll know it all. i hope i can share that single second with you.. but it just a hope since busy is our middle name.

i need a break and i need to let myself take a rest..


i'm a realist and i'm a doctor...

I cant found myself

heloo world..

sepertinya udah lama banget gue kaga nulis, menyalurkan hobi gue yang satu ini sejak gue masuk kuliah 2.5taon lalu.. banyak hal yang terjadi dalam 2.5taon yang ga sempet gue tulis entah sejak kapan pastinya gue brenti untuk nulis tapi satu hal yang pasti gue makin ga da waktu.

kuliah gue menyita banyak waktu bgt.. kalo dbandingin kualitas hidup gue sblom dan skrg pas udah kuliah gue bisa blg klo hidup gue sblom kuliah lebih berkualitas dan lebih banyak waktu yang bs gue manfaatin untuk hal laen kalo sekarang idup gue cm kuliah doank and it stressed me out. tapi dalam hal goal achievement, banyak hal yg cuma gue dapet pas kuliah.

i'm too goal oriented, that's what people said bout me.. sampe2 gue ga tau kapan harus brenti ngerjain sesuatu smp gue brasa puas sm hasil kerja gue and made my relations with other degraded too.. i must to fix this asap..

i really cant found myself when im working but i really enjoy every moment when im working and chasing my goals. maybe i can classified myself as a workaholic jerk.


i'm a realist and i'm a doctor.